Everyone's An Outsider

my story starts here. for latecomers arriving now, i offer a few words chosen at random: ”three weeks earlier”, “a pile of money”, “an english class”, “a house by the river”, “a romantic girl”. 

there is an ocean of indifference between us. this isnt your first lie either is it? now i am your accomplice. sometimes things are best hidden when in full view of everyone. its not only your looks but your happiness too. a minute of silence can be a long time…empires crumble but fools go on…

now is the time for a digression in which to describe our heros feelings

is the world becoming a dream or is the dream becoming a world? people on the train always look so sad and lonely. you long to believe in blue skies…its a feeling i know quite well. i am just the same as you. hurry up, death is too good for you! the WORLD is crumbling around me, cant you see it? isnt it strange how people never form a whole? they never come together. stay tuned…

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You Look Lonely...

...but i have love, hate, action, violence and death. in other words, emotions. they keep me company. some days are just like that. to want something you have to be alive.

SILENCE

no one will ever know. ill do anything you want. i never thought id always want you…guys like you are always sorry but always too late. i feel alive now and thats all that matters. like shadows, like a mirror…i saw…nothing. ive decided never to fall in love again. its a disgusting habit. life may be sad but it is always beautiful.

FUCK ME

as long as im me and youre you the universe will hold us together. its too much like fate. cham cham ratatam…youre waiting for me but im not there. i only really exist for you. dont speak to me with words when i look at you with feelings. its funny how you never believe me. in the end the only thing of any interest is the paths people take. the tragic part is that even when they know where they are going and who they are everything is still a mystery. 

NEXT CHAPTER : DESPAIR

i just want to live, maybe im daydreaming…we no longer need mirrors to talk to ourselves. ITS A FINE DAY. we are made of dreams and dreams are made of us. ive never understood your loyalty. words have the power to disperse the shadows from the objects they name. your story ends here and i love you in my own way. always. 

(tender and cruel

real and surreal)

i wish time would stand S T I L L. im just a sentiMENTAL girl thats all. we were only together for a few million seconds so how am i supposed to know who you are? with you its so complicated. count to 137 then meet me in tahiti.

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A Woman Is A Woman

according to godard. 

why are you crying? because i want to be both yellow animals at the same time…always wanting the impossible. i will take my drum and beat it. what are you thinking? i think i exist. im not the kind of girl to behave because i am BEAUTI-FUL. why is it always women who suffer? i despise you and i dont know whether to laugh or to cry. you think i am crazy but im not. tell me…is this a tragedy or a comedy?  

SHE EXITS.

im not speaking to you. im scared. i dont know whats true and whats a lie because your expression never changes. im always getting things wrong. the truth should look different from a lie. i could never hate you even if i tried. i only want you by my side but its not fair. its always when we are together that we are not together. i can be very cruel because i am BEAUTI-FUL.

FIN.

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